Your excuses are you choose to stay small, because you are so scared of your own bigness. It's you dimming, because deep down you are scared that you'll be soooo unreliable to the people around you, you'll have to let them go.
You are scared of outgrowing what you know already; your comfort zone.
And I'm going to encourage you to do so.
If we don't grow, you'll be a match to more than what you've got today.